You know that thing where I am a little bit (extremely) ridiculous?

Yeah. It happened real bad today.

Perhaps I should explain.

You know that thing that happens once a month where my uterus sheds it's lining and I go apeshit in the process? That is happening right now. For the most part the only side effect I've been experiencing is an incessant urge to eat everything in my path that might be edible/have a flavor, which has been a nightmare in and of itself...I've gained 5 lbs in 3 days because I can't stop eating! Today, however, the irrational rage showed up and about 2/3 of my way through my work day I became so simultaneously thirsty and angry I genuinely thought I was going to chug a glass of water and then smash the glass into a wall. I deliberately did NOT get a glass of water because I was so unnerved by the desire. I did a pretty okay job of keeping it together, and even managed to make plans to go the the movies with Marisa in between battling the urge to put my fist through my computer screen and being moderately productive. 

To ensure that I'd make it safely through the rest of the night, I decided to take a post-work pre-movies nap. This is where everything went wrong. I fell asleep before I could remember to turn my phone off silent....so I didn't get any alerts/messages. Like the ones Marisa sent me asking if I were still one of the living.  So yeah, I did not wake up until around 6:45pm which was too late to make it to my favorite theatre where we were going to see Gulliver's Travels (finally). 

So, how am I coping with it all? I am about to go drown my sorrows in Mexican food. Fuck you, hormones.

Sorry for being lazy.

I have neglected you, Blog. I have neglected you, too, friends. I am so sorry, but I assure you, I have really been busy. Like, I know in my last entry I was all "splish splash I am busy" but that was a joke. That was an exaggeration. That was a wish. Since then I feel like I have been put through a fucking GAUNTLET.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE?! A GAUNTLET?! IT FEELS LIKE IT SUCKS!

Where should I start? There is not much to mention. I mean, unless you think that my mom and I confronting a drug dealer in my brother's living room and then getting into a screaming match with the aforementioned drug dealer's gf in the front yard is worth mentioning. Because that definitely happened.

Or the time I worked for nine days straight. Most days from 6am-2pm. By the end of that marathon of employment I was going to bed, no bullshit, at 6pm. And my hair looked like shit everyday b/c I had to take a shower before I went to bed, since there was no way in hell I was going to be able to get up early enough to shower before work.

So yeah. Mostly the marathon is what was kicking my ass. I am going to try to be better. I know people who balance work, school, and active social lives. I cannot even handle work and that is a crying shame. I need to get it together. I am going to GET IT TOGETHERRRR!!!!

At least I have my beautiful, wonderful, magical BlackBerry. That phone has been my LIFESAVER. It's how I've been able to keep up with what is going on on FB and twitter! Plus, I got a new, super cute purple and black zebra striped case for it. So yeah. It's pretty rad.

My car is all legal and registered and insured and titled. I drove it to work two days in a row when I discovered that there was oil pouring out of it. My brother says the rear seal or some shit is bad and that is why it is leaking. Natch, this is a $30 part that will cost $500 in labor to install. He is supposed to be going to Okinawa for work, and he promised me that if he really did make good money he would buy and have a completely new motor put in it. I doubt very highly that will happen, so I am just going to save up like a normal person. At any rate, Millicent (that's my car's name, y'all) is out of commission. And this makes me very very very sad.

Okay, so this is the latest I have stayed up in, like, two weeks and I need to go to bed b/c I am still kind of tired. I will try to be better. For real.

keep it on the down low

I just set the blog to invited readers only. It will just be for a few days. I need to lay low for a day or two.